2 Oct 2004 - Would you please just Shut UP!!!!

Today was a very hectic, chaotic day. I went with my sister and my dad to run some errands. Everything was going ok until we got to my dads house. We stopped there so he could pick up his monthly check and cash it. Well he thought that once we did this we were going to be able to take him around to pay his monthly bills. Now most people just send their bills in the mail. Not my dad. He wants to hand deliver every single one. I know his reasoning why he wants to do this but i keep trying to explain to him that you can send them, they will get there. Let me see if i can explain this to you. My dad is 64 years old and only has a 6th or 7th grade education. I don't know exactly which one it is because it changes every week. He can't read and he doesn't really know how to write. He is very stubborn. You try to explain to him the way things are today and just doesn't believe you, either that he just doesn't want to. Well, it also doesn't help that my sister hasn't been paying some of his bills. Quite a few of them haven't been paid in a couple of months. Which this has made him extremely pissed at her. This is kind of his fault to. I tried to get him to put me on his account so i could help him with paying his bills but he doesn't want to take the time to do it. She has also been using his money to pay some of her stuff even though her and her husband get plenty of money each month to make their bills. She also has a problem with spending the bill money on senseless crap and then she wonders there is no money to pay the bills with. WEll DUH!!!! Where do you think it goes?!! I am glad the my dad is finally opening his eyes to what she has been doing with his money. Because what she has been doing is not right and just burns my butter. He doesn't get that much and she wants to buy crap with it. I don't think so. Don't get me wrong i love my sister but......Well, anyways in the car today, my dad and her just kept bickering. I couldn't take it anymore. I had to finally tell them both to shut up, they were driving me nuts. (he also complains and always has to put his 2 cents in on the way my sister drives, which in some things he does has a point, but it gets old). When he does this, it just makes my sister frustrated and then she starts going crazy with the way she drives. She starts going faster, stopping shorter, taking curves to fast, and peeling out the tires. I actually could go on with this but im not.

I haven't been able to talk to my children all week. I miss them everyday. I will get to see them tomorrow at my sons' football games. I look forward to this. I will be able to spend some one on one time with them on sunday too. I just wish it was for longer. Maybe someday soon this will change. I finally was able to get a daytime job. Working those nights for the last 2 1/2 years really takes the toll on a person. I won't have to work all those long hours either and i will be able to make enough money to pay the child support that i have to pay. It will all come out of my check and then i won't have to worry about it anymore. I will work my hours and enjoy my days off. What a relief to be able to work normal hours, normal days. Maybe I can start to have some sort of semblance of a normal life. HA! Normal, what is that? So many different people, different ideas. What can be defined as normal. You can't define it, just not possible. And I think that is cool as hell. In this world we need different people, different ideas. Who wants everything to be the same as everything else. I know I don't. Wouldn't that getting boring. I'll tell you what, with me starting my new job this monday I won't get bored sitting around my sister's house with not shit to do. That was getting old real fast. She doesn't work and you can tell too. All she does is clean this freaking house. It so clean you could eat out of the toliet and shit on the floor. It wouldn't stay messy, she would be right behind you cleaning it up as you took your shit...HAHAH im so funny i crack myself up.

Music playing....She-Ben Christophers.

P.s. we named the kitten that has been hanging around and taking a liking to my husband....oliver twista cat, cool, huh?!