I think I'm Addicted......HELP!!

You Are Cupid

A total romantic, you're always crushing on a new reindeer. Why You're Naughty: You've caused so much drama, all the reindeers aren't speaking to each other. Why You're Nice: You have a knack for playing matchmaker. You even hooked Rudolph up!

Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

Going Overboard, I know!

Your Kissing Purity Score: 43% Pure

You're not one to kiss and tell... But word is, you kiss pretty well.

Kissing Purity Test

This one is so RIGHT ON!!!

Your 2005 Song Is

Feel Good Inc by Gorillaz "Love forever love is free. Let's turn forever you and me." In 2005, you were loving life and feeling no pain.

What Hit Song of 2005 Are You?

Half and Half! a good combination..

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Super hero Genius that I am!!!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Tiger Elf Your Superpower is Solar Your Weakness is Sunlight Your Weapon is Your Fire Armor Your Mode of Transportation is Teleporter

What's your Superhero Name?

Perhaps a slight peek into a woman's sexuality...

Hmmm.....this evening I was sitting here crocheting, listening to the tv, and listening to the radio. Yes, a woman can multi-task. But only when she wants to and especially when its with things she likes to do. HAHA! Anyways, back to the point on hand........

I started thinking about my age, 33, and my sexuality. Well, let me take you back to when this thinking actually started. The other day the hubby and I are riding to work and I was remembering what he did to me the previous night. Lets just say, the man has a tongue and knows how to use it. It just gets better and better and better. I mentioned to my hubby that I was thinking about it and it was making me horny. To which his comment is, "You always get amorous when we are on our way to work." I don't know why this is, it just happens. It kind of sucks because I then have to wait like 10 hours before I(him) can do anything about it. It can be a good thing, this waiting, because the anticipation heightens it..at least for me it does. Anyways, he then precedes to tell me that if I am at home, alone, and I get all worked up then I should close the door and do something about it. I don't usually because I rather he did it. He is SO good at it and he makes it feel SO great! I just look at this man and he still makes me weak in the knees and my heart go THUMP! THUMP!

So while I am sitting here, he is at work but just wait til he comes home. We are going to go at like I don't know what but you can just use your own imagination, go ahead, I dare ya! Because when it comes to spicing up a bedroom an imagination is a terrible thing to waste, unless your better half is wasted and then I say "take advantage" you'll never know what ya get. Just keep an open mind. It has worked wonders for me. Alot of my friends are always asking me how I am so happy all the time and have so much energy. I have just one letter for them---the Big "O"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Icy roads and me do not mix...

Yesterday on my day off, I took hubby to work so I could keep our one and only car. I was picking up the kiddos at 4 and keeping them until 8. The kids and I went to Wendy's to eat--for free. They wanted to eat there anyways so it worked out well. We came back home and my 11 yr old immediately started playing the PS2. What can I say?! He loves it. He is also the one that asks me the strangest questions for an 11 yr old. His strangest to date is.."what happens when you shave your wee wee?" I have no clue where he comes up with this stuff and what the hell do you say? I'm at a loss.

After I took them home I made the mistake(a big one) of stopping at wally world for coffee. I went picked up 5 things and stood in line for a half an hour. They had 4 lanes open and they were each at least 15 deep. It was outrageous for this time of year. Obviously, they aren't thinking about there customers. My next stop was Krogers for food stuffs. I got back home around 9:30ish and by 10 we had an inch or two of snow on the ground. It covered everything and made the roads slick as snot. Nice terminology huh?! Give a big ol' thanks to the Dad for that one. Anyways, I left at 11 to pick up hubby from work. It took me 30 minutes to get to Wendy's which is less than 10 away. I fishtailed a few times but kept it under control. There was a semi stuck on a curvy hill and they weren't letting anybody through but I followed a guy in a jeep and went through it anyways. I finally made it to Wendy's, got inside and preceded to have the nerve wracking drive catch up to me. I was shaking and my jaw was going 90 miles an hour. I know, I clocked it....LOL

I need more coffee now.......Have peace or get a piece whichever floats your bobber!

Its freakin' cold!

We got a taste of winter last thursday. About 3 inches of snow fell in a couple of hours. It wasn't all bad, we closed work an hour early. When hubby and i travelled to Indiana for his mother's burial the roads were pretty clear.

I did get to meet his 2 brothers and 2 sisters. They seem like ok people to me. Him and his brothers pretty much have the same type sense of humor which i gathered they got from their mother. I think they all are going to try and stay in a little more touch with each other. I also think that no matter how dysfunctional you think your family is you still need each other especially after such a deep loss.

I had the joy of working over 13 hours at work yesterday. I will probably only end up with an hour of overtime but Hey! any overtime I can get I will take. Definitely! OH What fun I had!!! Business was slow but somewhat steady. I have decided to save my 30 hour paid vacation until sometime next year and just take off the week of x-mas when I get my kids. I will work a couple of opens so my check isn't so small. Just a couple because I am SOOOOO not a morning person. I can get up early if I have to but if I don't, I won't.

"I like the nightlife, I like to boogie!"

Beautiful, Creed----music playing in the background on my launchcast plus station on yahoo.....

some sad news....

My husband mother died friday morning on the 2nd. She had been sick for awhile and she held on for as long as she could. The services are this weekend.


I earned a 30 hours paid vacation from work this year. I'm not really sure when I'm going to take it.

My youngest sons' 11th birthday is Saturday. He told me he wants Football Statues, whatever that is. I figured I would just get him something, anything to do with football and he will be happy. The boy loves football. He could sit in front of the tv all weekend either watching or playing it on the ps2.

I finally finished crocheting the hat, booties and afghan for the girl at work. I will post a picture so ya all can see it.

I haven't heard from my sister Lori in over a month. Not really sure what is going on with her but I hope she gets her shit together for her children's sake. She has 5 between 18 and 1 years old. I love her but some things she has to do for herself. Just like everybody else does...

on the verge on saying something....

I'm just sitting here just trying to think of something to say. And for some odd reason, I can't seem to really get a thought to stay in my head. It kind of feels like I've lost touch with my inner being. My creative, deep thought thinking side. The more i think about it, it must have taken a sabbactical.


The sex between hubby and i has been A-MA-Z-ING!!!!!!

christmas is almost here.....again

Happy Turkey Day!!! I hope everyone stuffs themselves silly. Good Eats Everyone!!

all set up in our new digs...

Well, we've been living in our new room for a week now and its been great so far. We don't have that long drive to and from work anymore. After the first night we worked and came home, we arrived home at 12:22 am instead of the 1 or 1:30 it would've been if we didn't move. It was excellent. The kids arrived yesterday for their first weekend visit here and they seem to like it a lot better. I know I do. The house is warmer, there is carpet and tile on the floor, and I don't see a 2x4 anywhere. We can actually take showers and the house doesn't smell like my fathers snuff...eeck! I also made a deal with my sister that she checks on him one week and I the other. That way he doesn't stress just one of us out all the time.

on the move.......

2 days and a wake-up....

that's all thats left until rob and I will finally be moved outta my dads house. We are both looking very much forward to this. The one thing we can't wait to do after we move is take freakin' shower. My dads house doesn't have one. We have a tub and a faucet and thats it . There is a shower head but water hasn't been run to it.

I told Rob today that when we paid Eric his rent money we should have $360 all in pennies. Wouldn't that be a hoot?. Well, he laughed and then preceded to say that he would probably hit me with it. lol It was funny. Eric also told us several times tonight that we could move in anytime we wanted, which we originally planned for Saturday. It would be nice but we won't be ready until then. You see I haven't "officially" told my Dad. He figured it out because he eavesdrops on peoples conversation. He is a nosey motha-fucker. I know I'm going to put it off for as long as possible because I don't like confrontations.

one cereal, many bowls

I was eating some cereal this evening and realized that depending on which cereal I am eating decides which bowl I use. My husband has one particular bowl that he used strictly for cereal eating and I am the opposite. For example, When I eat a flaky cereal I use a white corelle bowl. If I am eating an "o" shaped cereal, I use I small grayish white with a off color red stripe. It made up of some kind of crockery. If its kind of pebbly, puffy, crunchy, krispy, cracklin' sweet cereal I use a regular plastic type bowl. Narrow bottom, big hole. Old butter bowls.

Below is a list of a few of my favorite cereals......

#1 is definitely Froot Loops. It is the best of the loopy, round cereals.

Even Straight Outta the Box.

#2 is Peanut Butter Crunch. ONLY the best peanut nutty nut cereal ever.

#3 Cheerios. Just plain Ol' good eats.

#4 Sugar Crisp. The Ultimate Sugar High. To be eaten by major sweet tooths only.

#5 (Insert Drum Roll here..) Frosted Mini Wheats. Bite Size. Sweet and Crunchy. What a combo!

time for some changes up in here...

Yes Folks, Its time for some changing and the changing will occur next Sunday.

We are finally moving out of my dads house. I am so looking forward to this its not funny. We are moving in with a friend of mine that I work with. He has a spare room that we can use and our rent is going to help him with his house payment..or at least I reckon it will. He only lives maybe 10 minutes away from where we work, which will be nice when it comes to gas. A ten minute drive compared to a 45 minute drive. Its a no-brainer. And not to mention getting away from my dads flatulous self. I know he is old but damn! he doesn't have to be so eecky crude.

I found yesterday that my eldest sisters' divorce was final and she is not doing to well at all. I know that divorces can be rough (I've went through one myself) but alot of her well-being she has done to herself. Well, for one she has gotten her addicted to pills. She has showed them to me and I've seen her pay for them by using her food stamps. My sister used to be a really good person. She took care of her kids better than herself and gave them anything she could. Ok. She spoiled them. But now she can barely take care of herself or her kids. And I know them kids know something is not right about her. They know their mother.

I went down there this past summer with the intention of watching her kids while she got off the pills. But she just wouldn't do it, so I came home a week early. I couldn't stand that I came 6 hours from Ohio to be with her and she couldn't get off the damn phone long enough to speak to me for a few minutes. It was crazy. So I said "enough, I'm going home." I now know that at this point in her addiction she is going to have to hit rock bottom and lose everything that she loves to realize that she has a problem and she needs help with it. Until then I can't do a damn thing. So I will love her from afar and tough it will be for her and me.

does she think of me?

I was just sitting and here and I started thinking of my sister, Julie. I haven't seen or talked to her in a little over 3 years. Not because I haven't wanted to its just that we somehow lost contact with each other. One of these days.......


Tonight at work was rather slow and boring. It seemed like the night dragged forever. It was such a looooonnng night. Eric doesn't work all this week and it sucks. Eric and I annoy the heck out of each just purely for the funniness of it. I pick on him like he was one of my younger brothers. Its funny. So an interesting week it shall be....

The hubby and I had a somewhat exciting weekend. On Saturday we actually left the house and met up with a friend, then went to another friends house and celebrated 420 for awhile. After that we actually went to the mall but didn't really go into the mall part of the mall. Went to Kohl's and got hubby some pants, a shirt, and some boxer briefs (must have for well-equipped manly men). We finally made it back home and lo and behold, no boxer briefs in the bag. So now we have to go back to the mall but not really go in and get his boxer briefs. After we get home and I cook dinner. We eat. Hubby and I celebrated 420 again. Then a little while later got our freak on! Yes! It was absolutely amazing. This man who is 44 years old and starting to feel his age just doesn't to remember that he keeps making our love-making even better and better. I have no need to look anywhere else to fulfill my needs because there is no one, no one out there, that just can't compare. Just Can't.

arrghhh...the sweet smell of a brunette

My pirate name is:

Mad Ethel Rackham

Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. You have the good fortune of having a good name, since Rackham (pronounced RACKem, not rack-ham) is one of the coolest sounding surnames for a pirate. Arr!

Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.

squeak! whats that smell?

Well, I've gone and done it. Truly, folks, I've went and had a brainfart. A real one in true non-blonde style. I say non-blonde because I'm a brunette. *snicker*.. This is what happened......

The following story is true. No names have been changed to protect the innocent.

Tonight, I thought it would be funny to call Chris at work and ask him if he had any round tables for sale and then hang up. He would've known who it was and would've laughed and then called me a smartass. So I went and got the phone, dialed the number, asked Eric to put Chris on, when it dawned on me, that Chris wasn't working tonight, thats tomorrow night. I was DERRRRRR!!! Eric reminded me that if Chris was there working then I would be there too! Major DUHHH! I had a total brainfart and knew it and proceeded to tell Debbie what I had done to which her response was "dumbass!".

Well, thats what happened in my own words.

Fellow Brunettes....."don't hurt me." ok....maybe a little...teehee.

she's done it again....

The start to another great work week. I am off tomorrow. YEAH !!! for me but I do have to work this friday night though.

We had a great weekend with the kiddos. They are so funny. When we was at Isaac's football game saturday afternoon one of his teammates asked if Rob, Isaac's step-dad was his Grandpa. It was hilarious, not for Rob but for me it was. I laughed my head off. I couldn't help myself. The thing is Rob doesn't look like a grandpa since he colored his hair last weekend so all the gray is gone. I can't say anything though, I colored my hair too!

Tomorrow on my day off I plan on not doing anything unless I want to do it. Im gonna sit in my room watch tv and crotchet some baby stuff for a girl at work.

My red-headed sister came over today. She is having another problem with her car. ITs not funny but it is. I personally think its the way she's driving it but who can say for sure.

being at home...

Today is my adoptive Dad's Birthday...Happy Birthday Dad!! You rock!! And your still older than me..nanananannaanaa....


Last night after work the hubby and I went to Eric and Debbie's to have a little fun. Chris from work came too. We did some drinking and played Darts. Chris won the first game and hubby won the second game, but Eric, Chris and I kept playing. Eric came in second and I beat Chris by throwing a Bullseye!! I couldn't believe it!! I am looking forward to working with Chris this coming Tuesday so I can rub it in....lol

Let's Celebrate!!!

Hubby got the car fixed!!!!! Its running like a top!! Come to find out it was the simplest of things too! The freaking spark plugs!!! 3 of the were burned completely out. Im not to good on my mechanics lingo...LOL Last night on the way home we stopped on a dark strip of road and raised the hood and he revved the engine and it was our personal light show. The sparks were arcing all over the place...it was kind of pretty. But now that he replaced the plugs and wires no more pretty light show for me...LOL

I'm not sure and I don't know why

I'm not sure and I don't know why things are the way they are, they just are. I haven't really had a lot to say of late. I guess I just haven't sat done and let my self get deep in thought.

Work is they same ol' same ol'. There has been some drama, I just don't let myself get involved in it because its stupid.

Sometimes I wish hubby and I had friends we could actually do things with. That would be nice. He did ask me if I wanted to go out this weekend see a movie or something and all I could say is "I don't know." We really should go and do something so we aren't sitting here all weekend bored out of our gourds cause that is what will happen come tomorrow. He has been working on the car all day trying to get it running again. We drove it over to Milford and the back right brake started smokin'. Guess its time to change that one. So he gets to do that tomorrow. We did get the little metal key thing to stick in the fuse panel to see what error code we get from the computer on the car and found out it could be one of 3 different sensors. So he is getting the least expensive one and trying that and then move on the to the next one if it isn't. He told me which ones they were but I can't remember all the mechanical mumbo jumbo. Some things on the car I understand other things I will just the man handle.

I am fixing potato soup for dinner and listening to my Monster Ballads CD....I got it turned up real loud because right now nobody is here except for me...The decibel level is going to reach new heights....not to high cause it just might shake this poor ol house apart...LOL not really funny but it is in a way.

little of this little of that....

Rob is recovering well from his surgery. We go on wednesday for a follow up to make sure everything is going ok and to get the full pathology report from the lump they removed.

He is finally starting 2nd shift today! We will finally be able to spend some time together. Since he was on 1st shift and I on 2nd's we didn't get much and we don't do well without seeing each other. It was hard missing him so much but now things will be much better now. My schedule at work is going to change a little bit. I will have to start working every other friday which is fine I don't mind. As long as I still get my hours. Its work I shall do it.

I was sick this past weekend which i got from my dad he was sick on thursday and it wasn't pretty. But it only lasted a day so that was good. Hopefully I won't get sick anymore this winter. knock on wood.

and another thing....

The past week has been a busy week for us. Yesterday My hubby had surgery on his neck to remove a lump that had been there for at least 5 years. It ended up being benign mixed tumor and it was good that it was removed. He is doing ok its just hard to swallow right now but he will get better.

Work this past week for me was good. Business is down somewhat but as long as i work hard i will be able to keep my hours and OH yeah! I got another raise...YEAH! for me!! It was only 20 cents but every little bit helps.

kids...they are so funny!

I always look forward to the weekends i have my children ages 13, 12, and 10.. My 12 year old had a football game today(17th). We had to be there 2 hours before his game started but it was cool. We got to sit and watch the 5th graders play first. They won their game 7-0. Then at 4 my son played his game. They won also. He liked the fact that they won but he was upset that he only got to be in the game for 3 plays. I think they should play him more but I am his mother. But he also has the a lot of heart to play the game. He loves it. And I'm pretty sure that the reason they don't play him more is because of his size. He is on the small size for his age and he gets it honest. His father is only 5'7 and I'm 5'5. Also, most of the people on my side of the family are small stature. I'm hoping that he will gain some size in the next couple of years. He does have an uncle that is 6'3 so it could happen we will just have to wait and see.....

Long time, no blog...

I guess recently i haven't had much too say or write about. Work is just work, nothing really exciting happening there.

Last friday we did drive to Circleville Ohio to get a new fuel pump assembly for the car. It was enjoyable because we able to spend almost all day not being around Charlie(my bio. dad). It was nice to be able to get out and just drive like we used to do. Just go for a drive see where it takes us. Well, hubby put that new part in the car and it ran ok for a little while until he checked and realized one of the fuel injectors wasn't sealing right and spraying gas everywhere. So now where are going to have to replace those. New, they are almost 60 bucks a piece so we are going to try the used ones at 16 bucks a piece first and see if they will work. But we can't get those until weekend after next. So I called my Dad Steve(adoptive one) if we could borrow his little Ford Festiva for a week or two. He said we could.

My sister Charlene has been coming over everyday for the past week and a half to do laundry and bathe. Their main water line from the street to the house broke so they haven't had any water. Which I know sucks because Rob and I have lived places where we didn't have water so we had to haul it up from the water spicket up 3 flights of stairs. Not a fun thing to do.

I still haven't had any luck finding my sister Julie. I did find out that supposedly my niece has her number but I haven't been able to get it from her yet because its on her cell phone and she lost the charger thingy cord to it and i guess she hasn't been able to get another one. So I shall wait and see what happens there I guess.

these little words of mine

This is just a little diddy that I thought of while sitting here, chatting with my
hubby....so here goes nothing....

Elevated at again Stonersville

sit in your chair and stare at the screen rereading the above line for about 20 minutes when it dawns on you that you've been sitting here for 20 minutes or so rereading that line and you just can't think of anything else to write......its
amazing what wondrous things the brain can do....

Well, during this time hubby and I were chatting....and we've decided that we
need to go to a comedy club the next time we go out. We've never been to one
together and thats strange because we are people that just love to laugh and
have a really good time. Its also cool that we can make each other laugh or
laugh about the simplest things. Its hilarious.

And at work tonight I told Eric that skinny white men can't hump. He didn't
like the fact that I burned him but he did laugh because he knew it was funny
and true at the same time. Just so you all know...Eric is skinny and white and
he can't hump because his wife cut him off............(sorry, Eric, I had to!)

the way he makes me feel

you are in each breath i take,

you are like a gentle sigh,

caressing, and feather like

a whisper upon the wind.......

i miss you when you're away,

i need you more each day.
i yearn for the love we make,

wrap your body into mine,

on me you shall dine

food for the erotic soul......

Just Words....

I open my eyes

I try to see but I’m blinded by the white light

I can’t remember how

I can’t remember why

I’m lying here tonight

And I can’t stand the pain

And I can’t make it go away

No I can’t stand the pain

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

Everybody’s screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I’m slipping off the edge

I’m hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can’t explain what happened

And I can’t erase the things that I’ve done

No I can’tHow could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes

I’ve got no where to run

The night goes on

As I’m fading away

I’m sick of this life

I just wanna scream

How could this happen to me

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im not really sure

Things have been kind of rough around here this past week. Its not easy having to rely on your dad for gas money and whatnot. But Rob and I both get paid tomorrow so this next week should be a little easier to deal with, especially not having to rely on dad so much. Dad can be so stubborn and hard headed. He knows that we both have to get back and forth to work and we have to use his car. Our car needs a fuel pump and a new gas tank which Rob found a new tank for 20 bucks somewhere south of Columbus which is good for us because the cheaper the better right now. He will have to eventually get new fuel injectors for it but those are 60 bucks a piece and it needs 6 of them.

Also, next wednesday we will be getting Rob's results from his biopsy that he had last wednesday. We both are a little concerned about what those will be. Hopefully nothing that we will have to worry about. But we just don't know and that sucks.

Does Yahoo suck?!

Is there anyone else out there that agrees with the above statement?. I would that within in the last month or two yahoo keeps encountering a problem and has to lose. Why haven't they found a solution for this? Its annoying as hell. And forget about Launchcast running good anymore....its starting to get slow and groggy and has trouble either playing the music or displaying that artists, song, album titles page. Well, I decided that I would try and find another online radio station where you pick the music and styles and they play it. I did a search on Google for free personal internet radio and the first one listed I clicked on. It was this one here. I did some reading and with hubby's help I downloaded the plug-in and player and filled out my profile, found the page and listed some artists and the music was rocking. Listening to it now as i write and you read this.

On a side note....I don't know if I told ya'll about my husband getting burned with gasoline, me having to call 911, then sitting at the wrong hospital for 30 minutes, driving around downtown cincinnati at dusk, the cute white chic by herself, not knowing what condition my husband, the one I love dearly--yeah I have 2 hubby's--was in. I wasn't panicked or frantic, just concerned and worried for my safety had I gotten lost. Well, I did manage to get there and we left an hour later. He got 2nd degree burns and as of now, they are healing nicely. Still a little pain now and then but otherwise much better.

back to working again

WEll, yesterday was my first night back to work. It felt good. We had a lot of laughs.

more to come later

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Today started out like any other day....somewhat hectic....but not to bad...it settled down pretty quick. Hubby was working on the car, Dad was outside doing what Dad always does..nothing, Uncle Junior came up to visit...I ran the kids outside so I could clean house. I got the house clean as could, honest I did. I was able to play a few games on the comp before my boys wanted to take it over. I did manage to get out in the sun today, and then I bathed and got supper in the oven. Well, my hubby gets the fuel pump out of the gas tank of car and decides that he is going to hook it up to a battery charger and run clean gas through it too see if it will get the sugar out of it. Some time ago someone put sugar in our gas tank, this person was getting back at my hubby for something that he did so I guess they thought it would be easier to sugar the tank then confronting face on...I don 't know anyways......Well, his hand slipped off the fuel pump, it slips into the gasoline and when the contacts connected to battery charger hit that gas....it ignited it. Well, needless to say my hubby now has 2nd degree burns from his fingertips to his elbows and across his abdomen. I had to call 911 and then starting bitching because the ambulance wasn't getting there because there is a detour on our road and it takes you way out to 'BFE to get around it. Which I am calling the township tomorrow to find out who is the ones that is supposed to be fixing the road. Its been closed since February. So i think its about time they got the road fixed. Don't cha?!

Well, hubby was in absolutely excruitating pain that I don't wish on anybody. Besides I didn't like seeing him that way because I couldn't do a damn thing to help him. It was frantic and frightening experience...don't want to experience it ever again...."Please honey try to be more careful with your life...its the only one you have."

I'm Finally BAck HOme!

Yes its true! I'm finally back. Back from my sisters house of living hell. OMG, that household is so unorganized and undisciplined its not even funny. I tried to do what I could but its difficult when the mother won't back you up. She has spoiled her kids rotten and let them turn into complete brats. After being there for a week with her and her kids I was so thankful to the fact that my kids seem like complete angels compared to hers. Don't get me wrong my kids are by no means perfect and always listen to me but they are angels compared to them and their behavior. Those kids of hers just WALK All over her, and they know it and so does she but she still continues to let them. I finally had to wash my hands of the situation and just come back home because there is no helping someone that doesn't want to help themselves. So all I can do is pray that she will get the help that she needs before its too late. Do ya hear me, Lori?!

On a side note......Since I was visiting my sister I didn't get to see my husband all week. And let me tell ya, we he got down there on Friday, I was so excited and extremely overjoyed when I saw the car coming down the street. It was amazing! I missed him so much that week and I(we) realized that we have to start taking vacations together because we couldn't stand being apart from each for that long. And that night we had the most bestest ever awesomeness sex ever, ever, ever. Three hours worth!! Thank you Baby, I love you with everything that I have...you have me completely!

enjoying my time away from home

Hello everyone....I am certainly enjoying my vacation with my kids. There has been some moments when its been a little hectic, well you would think so to if you had 8 kids ranging in ages from 17 to 1 in a house at the same time. Hubby made it down this past friday and we did manage to go out tonight. We drove up to Paducah and went to steak n shake my old job and was able to spend some time with old friends. That place is crazy as ever and everyone was still the same. We shared some laughs....thanks to Andrea and Jessica..those 2 are so crazy its not funny..:)

The kids having been having a good time being able to spend some time with their cousins and going swimming every other day. My son Isaac has been obsessed with his tan and whether he is darker than everyone or not. Elijah has been spending pretty much all his time playing PS2 with his cousin Gunner. And Brooklynne just wants her hair straightened and someone to put make up on her. Also she is becoming addicted to shoes thanks to my sister Lori who is and has made her kids being clothes horses'...lol All in all a good time for all.

On Vacation

hey everyone....I'm going on vacation to my sister Lori's house in kentucky for 2 weeks......we are leaving this morning at 3 am...well hopefully we will be on the road by 330 am.....my 3 wonderful kids are going with me on this holiday...the hubby isn't because he has to work, but he will be coming down on the weekends...I will miss him!! I am really looking forward to this time away, especially from my dad, charlie...he is a cantankerous old fart who is right about everything..I mean everything...he can just get on your nerves..so a little time away will be a good thing....see ya all when i get back....I might occasionally post while I'm there if it doesn't take the dial up too long to connect to the internet,...LOL Peace!

An old song but it's still funny!

Ok here it goes...an old song. I have no idea where I learned this, none. I have a feeling that I learned it school. Isn't that where all the good ones are invented?. I'm pretty sure this is true because my youngest boy, 10, has sung me quite a few...new ones. I will put one of his next he comes for the weekend. Anyways, here is mine....

Gene, Gene, made a machine....
Joe, Joe, made it go......
Art, Art, cut a fart and blew it all apart.

Isn't that funny?! Well, if you had my sense of humor you would...lol

Work tonight, was slow, business wise, but fun because we were able laugh at each other or do to something that annoyed them. The latter is what usually occurs between Eric and I. Haha! Today (25th) was Eric's 26th birthday! Happy Birthday ya old fucker!!! LOL

what movie character I am most like.....results will vary when elevated...

star wars personality.....i'm the cult of , the cult of...persa-na-lity

"I was tagged"

I think I was "tagged" tonight. I was on Blogexplosion surfing members blogs. Well, tonight I was surfing and I have not been able to stop reading the very first blog that appear before me. It s been a very interesting read this evening. You can find it here. At the end of one of her entries....it pretty much said...so I'm supposed to tag 5 people, so I tag YOU. I paraphased alot but you get the gist. I think its called a "meme" or something or rather. Well, anyways for the next couple of hours, cause I know it take me awhile to do it....and then it will be done...

so here it goes............

Where was I ten years ago........

Lets see, 10 years ago, I would have been almost a month into my 23rd birthday. Don't do the math, that would be rude...LOL My youngest child was approaching the 7 month mark. I also had a 2.5 yr old and my eldest was a little over 3. Yes I had them close, which i didn't like back then but now that Im older I appreciate it alot. At this point in my life, my 3 kids was all I had besides my husband at the time. They were my life.

Where was I 5 years ago.............

I was separated from my first husband and already living with the next husband. We had just moved back to Ohio after being in Kentucky for a few months. I was working as a Deputy Jailer at the county jail in which we lived. My sister Lori I was working there and got me the job. Aren't older sisters cool?!

One year ago...........

My husband and I (we got married in '01) were a month away from moving back to Ohio(again) from Kentucky. But this time it was gonna be a permanent thing. I was so tired of having to move it drove me freaking nuts. We always had to do everything ourselves except hubby did manage to carry the couch and loveseat, on his back up 3 flights of stairs. Needless to say, his back hurt for awhile after that. Then one time we moved it was in the middle of the night in the downpouring rain, but this time we did have a some friends helping us, so that made it a little bit more tolerable. But still! I hate moving, with a passion. Could ya tell?!

Yesterday?..........

Hmmm, lets see if I can remember. I got up at a ten after eleven in the a.m. Started a load of whites, made coffee. Our pot only takes 2 minutes to make a pot of coffee. Sweet!! Straightened up some of my Dad's mess and finally poured myself some coffee and went into the bedroom, sat at the computer desk and preceded to get online. Got ready for work a while late. Left for work. Worked up until 12:15 that night. Left work, stopped at Krogers for milk and bread. Went home, made more coffee and smoked for a little while. Ate some chicken and dumplings, and then went to bed.

Five snacks I enjoy..........

Munchies by Doritos.

Cherry Kool-aid & Chocolate Chip Cookies

Froot Loops, with milk or without. Depends on mood.

Kettle Korn popcorn.

Ham and Cheese Hot pockets.

Five songs I know all the words to......

Pour Some Sugar on Me by Def Leppard.

Hey You by Pink Floyd.

Like A Stone by AudioSlave.

Total Eclipse of the Heart by Bonnie Tyler.

A Woman in Love by Barbra Streisand.

Five things I would do with a $100 million dollars........

With that much money I'm sure one could figure out how to all sorts of things. First thing I would do is pay back all the money I've ever borrowed from anybody in my whole life. Set up something for my childrens education and needs. Build my Dad a new house. Take myself to the doctor. Buy me a good car and hand out food to the less fortunate.
Five locations I would run away to.....

First would definitely be Ireland.
A tropical beach, alone.
Alaska.
My older sisters house.
Grand Canyon, just once before I die.

Five of my bad habits......

Smoking cigarettes.
Picking my lips until the bleed. (i have been getting better at not doing this)
Getting into situations I can't get out of.
Not cleaning up my messes. I am my fathers daugter.
and number 5 is....ask my husband he is better at this. LOL

Things I like doing........

Reading. Haven't done this in awhile.
Hanging out with friends.
Listening to music really loud in my room. Wish I could do it more often but THE DAD.
Being with my children.
Like to have my moments of just being with myself for awhile. Not long, just a little while.

Five things I never wear..........

Lipstick.
Miniskirts.
Anything thing with horizontal lines.
Spandex.
A condom! Im a girl for petes sake! LOL

Five tv shows I like........

ER
Law & Order (All of them.)
Star Trek, not the old the new.
American Chopper.
City Confidential.

Biggest Joys of the moment..........

I'm actually losing weight and I'm not sure really why.
I took a few extra days off work to regroup.
My dad walking through the kitchen belching as he goes. This is my life. Lovin every minute of it...

Five favorite toys......

This darn machine!
My little wooden pipes.
Box of crayola crayons. They really are better.
My blog.
My make-up.

So that is it...it just took me a little over an hour to do that. At this point I'm supposed to tag five people. What is this tagging? And does it hurt?? I'm not one who thrives on pain...lol

So Im gonna do what the one before me did and TAG YOU ~~~~~~ You are it!!! laughing as I run fast away from you......LOL

Scotty was finally beamed up.

I just found out that Scotty(James Doohan) from Star Trek, has passed away. May he rest in peace.

A very good weekend.....

It was a very good weekend for the hubby and I. We had some of the best sex we've ever had in our almost 4 years of marriage. Our anniversary is Aug. 3 and I hope I don't forget it this year. I did last year and the year before. It was not good. My hubby remember but I didn't. Thats not good, is it?. The only thing is this year I will be on vacation at my sisters' in Kentucky for 2 weeks and our anniversary falls during this time. I guess when I get back or when he comes down for the weekend, I will have to make it up to him and that I will! He is the best. I do love him so much. Thank you, honey for the best weekend! You sure know me don't ya?! *wink* *wink*

Stoners of America, we have a new member..

Yes its true, we have a new member.....who is this person you say. Well, I will tell ya. My sixty something Uncle on my dads side. His name is Junior, yes, Junior, not kidding at all. Anyhoo, it was so funny showing him how to use the pipe and all that. It was funny but he enjoyed. I will talk with him tomorrow(sunday) see how he feels and all. Now only if I could get my dad high all would be well....

passage of time

Oh the wishes we seek upon the deceived,

wicked webs and lies un-perceived.

Fodder for the glory, glory received,

cast of shadowy eyes upon morbid sigh.

Timeless tales always believed,
whether true, often to mislead.
food for the soul, soul arose,
a wounded part beside beautiful heart.

Food Memories of the Past

Is there anyone else out that remembers eating kool-aid and cookies together?

Fruit Punch and Chocolate Chip Cookies were my and still are my favorite.

Then there is Rice Krispie Treats. Yum Yum! Which reminds me that I have some of the SNAP! KRACKLE! POP! and marshmellows. Guess what I am making tomorrow.

The Greatest Joke Ever (to a married couple)

When his wife's snoring woke him for the third straight night, Harry went to the bathroom medicine cabinet, got some aspirin and popped two tablets into her gaping mouth.

"Awk, glub!" choked his startled wife. "What the..."

"It's okay, honey. I gave you some aspirin," he explained.

"Why? I don't have a headache!"

"Great!" said Harry, triumphantly. "Let's fuck!"

electricity anyone....

Well, tonight at work was an interesting night. For about an hour and a half, we lost power. The rumor was that somebody struck a major pole down the road and knocked out about 10 square miles of business'. It kind of sucked because our sales had been up all day and when we lost power they just went right down the drain. Also, in a restaurant when the air conditioning is not working it gets freaking hot!! We were all sweating bullets. And you know what amazed me the most. We had to turn people away and they were very upset or just pissed off. It was like "Go home and fix yourselves something to eat. You must remember how." The power came back on about 9 so we opened the store back up. It was a good night all and all.

In other news......At the end of this month I'm taking 2 weeks off work and taking my kids down to Kentucky to stay with my sister. I am looking forward to this because 1. I get to spend time with my kids, 2. I get away from my dad.(who is driving me nuts with his I'M RIGHT! YOUR WRONG! about everything attitude) And the funny thing about it is, he has no more than a 6th grade education, if that and the man can't read or write. Ok he can write his name and thats about it. I tell ya what he would drive you insane too! You know what else drives me crazy is when he tells me we need to keep the dishes done and he hasn't even done them in over 2 months. OH but he will swear up and down that he has. I know there is some other stuff to but its just make me mad just thinking about it so I won't anymore.

not much happening.....

There hasn't been a whole lot happening this week. Did have family over for a cook-out on Monday and then we went and watched fireworks. It was nice.

At work, Debbie gave me a nickname of "Tater" and her nickname now is "Git'R Done, Git'r for short. Its really funny. I guess you could say Debbie and I are up and coming drinking buddies..LOL I'm not really much of a drinker. I mean I do drink but not alot. I'm not good at handling my alcohol. I could drink about 3 beers and I'm drunk but not throwing up drunk thats just nasty and no fun.

a mothers' realization....

I had a new thought today about my youngest son. He is 10. Well, it was like pulling teeth today to keep him outside. (Everytime I told him to go out he made excuses as to why he couldn't go out, which of course, none of them worked on me. Sorry, kiddo. And outside he went. After a few minutes outside he would eventually get up and go aggravate his older brother who is 12. Who just happens to be the same size as him. And of course, in older brother fashion he would end up around me and just have to tell on him. So they both used their final warning and it finally got through to them to stop aggravation each other, if only for a little while, they are brothers and thats what brothers do aggravate each other. Its in true brother fashion. The only reason he wanted to stay in is because he is a video game freak. He loves them. Wants to play them all the time. And he would if I let him. He is only 10 and he is hooked.

Had some fun had some fun!!

I did something last night that I thought I would never do. I karoaked...you know where you sing a song in front of a bunch of people. It was fun. I sang Def Leppards' Pour Some Sugar On me. That is my song. That is the only song I actually know by heart and can just sing anytime, with music or not. The kicker is, I couldn't get Debbie, Rob, or Chris to get and sing. I guess it was just funnier watching me making a complete fool of myself. It was funny. We had fun. It was awesome. When we finally was making our way back home Rob and I ran out of gas....again. Had to call my sister at 330 in the morning to bring us gas. Thank goodness for sisters.

Another birthday has passed....

Yesterday, the 27th, was my 33rd birthday. It was just another normal day except I didn't have to work, took the day off of course. My hubby started his new job yesterday. He unloads new windows and doors from trucks. Its hard work but he can do it, he needs to do it. We will see how long this lasts. Given his work history, yes I am a little skeptical. The longer he works the more that will go away.

The first 6 months of the year are almost over. I wonder what is in store for the next 6. I hope they are better than last year.

A Bun Request?

Well, tonight work was lets just say interesting. Eric and I was going at each other again. We do this occasionally, we just do whatever we can to annoy the hell out of each other. Eric did start it though. I was on washing dishes duty and he started letting the water out of my sinks. The first time he did it I got him back by pinching him. He did it again and then he pushed my clean dishes off the counter and back into the sink and I preceded to chase him and give him a noogie. We got busy with customers and when I got back to the dishes and looked in my sink he had put a hamburger bun in the water. They were full of water and mooshy and gross. I picked them up and let some of the water drain off of them. I snuck upon him and mooshed the wet buns all over his arms. It was GROSS! Well, needless to say he got me back my smooshing 2 wet buns on the back of my shirt. After this we decided to call a truce. It was hilarious. I love my job, its lots of fun!

I love the way.......

I love the way...................my hubby says hello to me. A kiss, passionate, soft, and deep. Amazing~~

I love the way.................he makes me feel when lying in his arms after a long day.

I love the way...............I feel spent after making love with him.

I love the way..............he just loves me.

The most exciting news!!

My hubby and I went today and paid his fines and reinstatement fees and now he is valid to drive again. HOORAY!!! I am so happy. I'm just soooo tired of driving. So tomorrow when we have to go and watch my daughter dance in her recital he can drive us there. It will be nice to sit in the passenger seat and look out the window at all the wonderful scenery or change the radio station every 5 seconds, which hubby just LOVES when I do this. LOL He says i have ADD when it comes to the radio and/or tv. I can't seem to stop myself from changing the channels all the time. But this is one of my little quirks that he just loves! lol

"I'm back!, I'm back! Back in yo face....

Since I haven't been around in awhile Man! is there lots to talk about, oh my.

Last couple of days I have broken out my Def Leppard Euphoria cd. I do enjoy my Def Leppard. They are still great! Yeah, I know, I'm old...I'm feeling it too. I did last night and today at work. I went over to some friends house wednesday night afterwork. Well, lets say me and another friend smoked before we go to their house. This was after I had already had drank half a beer. I'm not a drinker, folks. Maybe once a month, maybe. Anywhoos--the last 2 weeks i've been drinking some. After we go to where we were going I had another beer. We went downstairs played some darts--which i played much better this time, than the first. We started playing cards after Eric won in darts, the fucker. We played in a few rounds of one handed poker. I decided to have another beer. Oh yeah, I drank a beer while we played darts. We played cards until about 4 when Eric told me what time it was. I still had to drive 27 miles home, in the dark. haha! Well, I made it home by 5. Went to sleep at 5:22 and got up at 11:53. Took hubby to store for cigarettes before I left for work at 2. I went to work, got done at 12:15. I got a cappucino at UDF, then took Danielle home, and came home and now I'm sitting here writing this. Well, what I realized was that I'm not young anymore and I need my rest. The more I think about it, I think I had aminor hangover cuz I felt like shit all day. So, I'm going to try and make sure I don't do that again, but I know I probably will. I will just make sure someone else can drive me home...LOL

Lata!

a small hiatus...

Yes, I took a small hiatus from blogging. I don't know why. I do this occasionally. Sometimes I think its to give my creativity a rest. A kind of replenishment to keep the "juices" flowing. Non-flowing juices is an obstacles to creative minds like myself. ha-ha Not really much happened during the haitus. Like for instance, One night on the way home from work in the dark, I came up on something standing in the middle of the road and it wasn't moving. Out loud, I was telling this thing to MOVE! Whatever, it was I definitely did not want to hit it. I can't remember every hitting something in the road and I didn't want to start now. Anyways, I put on the brakes and came like what seemed inches away from this thing and it turns out its An Owl. An Owl. Sitting in the middle of road. He finally turned his head and glared at me and then preceded to fly off.

On a side note to this......I was wondering if it means anything to have an owl cross your path. I think its just odd. Because for one, how often do you actually see an owl? You can hear them but see them.

This past Monday I was able to get the cable bill caught up and now on the 21st they are installing the digital phone. $40 a month for unlimited local and long distance. NO other charges. THATS IT! One of the managers i work with works for the cable company so i get firsthand knowledge. lol

One night, Deb from work invited me over to have a beer and see their new house. Its big and its shaped like a horseshoe. Chris (from work also), drove us, me him deb over to deb's house. We drank a beer and played darts. It was fun. And Deb's husband, Eric is very good at darts. I will never play him for money, for real.

And now my weekend is finally here, and I'm ready for some relaxing, not doing shit, and having fun time.

Peace

Its been awhile, I guess

Its been awhile since i posted so here goes something.....

Work, well, has been work. I'm really getting tired of the long drive between home and work but I guess ya gotta do what ya gotta do.

I chatted with a good friend, actually 2 good friends of mine in Kentucky, yesterday night, things are getting better for one, and not so good for the other. I think about them quite a bit. They were a part of my life for 2 and a half years they were also great fun.

My message to Nathan....dude, I hope things get better and I will be thinking good thoughts for you come the 15th. Much love and a BIG HUG to you.

And to The Phyllis....I'm glad to hear that things are starting to turn around for you. I know you will get through it....You are one tough lady and if anyone can do it....YOU CAN!!! Much love and a BIG HUG for you too!

IN other news...My 13 year old daughter "graduates" from the 6th grade tomorrow morning at 9:30. She had done amazingly well in school considering she is mildly autustic. She is very bright. What I want to know is who at the school decided that 930 in the morning would be a good time to do this. Who is up at that hour?? LOL

be on the lookout!?

well, I was browsing my blog, and noticed that I haven't posted in a couple of days, Its not that I forgot about it and I was just too damned tired to get on the computer for any amount of time. I would be on it for a little while but nowhere near long enough for me to even try and think about doing a post. Well, you all can breathe a sigh of relief because I'm here now and its gonna be alright. LOL


Something new i learned tonight from "nick" was that Disney has remade "The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe". He sent me the like for it within yahoo and I watched the trailer for it and it was really cool. The sad thing is its not due out until December of 05. Thats a long way off.

Also, I have heard several people tell me that new Stars Wars movie is really good. Better than first 2 by far. I am going to see it, eventually. I'm waiting until the crowds die down a little bit. I really don't like seeing a movie in a crowded theater, its just comfy. Well, and I don't really like crowds either. I prefer shopping at midnight when there is hardly anybody in the store. Not all those eyes are watching me! " All I always feel like somebodys watching me, is it just a dream..." (name that tune) lol Actually just waiting until it gets to the "cheap seats....$2.50) I'm not paying 8 bucks to see a movie. Thats just not right.

my karma

You Have Fantastic Karma

You are a kind, sensitive, and giving person. And all your good deeds will pay off - if they haven't already. But you're not so concerned with what you get in return anyway. You have an innate caring nature - and nothing can change that!

How's Your Karma?

My Mental Age

You Are 24 Years Old

24 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

just something that i discovered

While, reading a friend's (mo)blog, I was enticed to click on the link he had for another's blog. So I while scrolling down the page from whence I clicked, there was posted a list of the person's 5 most favorite songs. So I decided to downloaded the songs the guy had listed and I gave them a listen. I very much enjoyed the song Everybody's Changing by Keane. Nice rhythm, flowing sounds...wake you up so to speak kind of music. Not so much morning wake as spiritual awakening. Hmmm, sorry I'm back, I zoned out there for a good 5 minutes. I'm down wandering the room and get back to the story. I also downloaded 2 other songs.....U Lied by Crea, and Edge of the Ocean by Ivy. They are all different musical styles. A very nice combination.


IN OTHER NEWS.........On my way home for work tonight, in which I was probably driving a little too fast, but dammit! I wanted to get home. Im so tired of driving to and fro, to and fro and other drivers are freaking crazy or stupid. Well, I saw a shooting star and I did make a wish on it after some persuasion from "Nick". Thanks, man.

Can't think of a title

Well, monday is over and now I have to get ready for Tuesday.

My hubby was finally able to get the car fixed this past weekend. I drove it to work tonight and it seemed to do Ok. Well, I did more than Ok because it didn't blow its spark plug on me and I made it home. It felt weird driving it again because its much tighter than my dads car. The brakes are a lot better also.

On the way home, I saw a raccoon walking on the side of the road.

IN OTHER NEWS.........

My ten year-old son has been here recently what certain words mean. I'm sure those of you who have children know what words I am referring to but if you don't--words of a sexual nature. I'm not embarrassed or upset with him for asking. I am glad that he is asking me and not asking at all. But still, I wasn't prepared in the least to answer his questions.

It just seems to me, that he is still "my baby" and that he isn't as old as he is. Its just "too"weird.

I am going to try to be open and honest and not sexually graphic. Just enough information so that he it satisfies his curiousity until he learns a new word and has to ask about that one. Oh! I look "unforward" (a katie-ism) to this day.

check this out....some funny sh*t if you ask me....

Read this online at the onion.....click for more reading pleasure.....here

It was great day!

I had a great mothers day. My kids spent the night saturday night and on sunday my sister and her kids came over and we had a cook-out. We ended up playing games in the yard all day. We played kickball, red rover, cartoon tag and red light, green light. Games that we played when we was younger and now we passed them on to a new generation..lol My sister and I even got our father to play too. We all had fun and I was able to get some sun. It was a beautiful day.

In other news, I finally went to the BMV and took my written test to get my Ohio Drivers License. The car insurance people were being real sticklers about that. Well, I took the test and passed with a 95%. I went down today and actually got the plastic license.

We were also able to get the part to fix the car. Hopefully, it will work and I can start driving my car again instead of driving my fathers car. Which by the way, I filled up the tank for $1.94. They say the gas prices should be falling within in the next month or so. Lets hope for this...

Have a great day!

Yahoo! came through

Yep they sure did. Finally got my account status resolved and I'm back online as me....I finally was able to get them to reset my password, that somebody was able to crack into and reset the password. I contact Yahoo! and told them I hadn't requested the change. So went through this email back and forth for a couple of days. They finally sent my secret question and I sent them back the answer. They still wasn't sure so I told I knew the answer to the question so send me a new password so I could get into it...


In other news.......The car still isn't working and hubby wasn't able to get the part needed to fix it. I told him to go to the auto place and have them order the part. They do that nowadays. So with a little luck he can get it running this weekend because I so don't like driving my dads car. It drives loose and No its not the driver! lol

an annoyance really

Well., the last couple of days I have been fighting with yahoo. Seems somebody was able to get into my account and change my password. So i've been going back and forth with yahoo to get them to send me another password to my alternate email so I can go in and change some settings and all. It just really sucks. This is the second time this has happened to me....

up at it again...

Have you ever just sat and really, seriously listened to some really cool, soothing music. Nothing fast, harsh, hard, punchy, just slow and easy.

Just listened and absorbed the music so that it takes you too a far off place. Where you can do anything you want, be anything. Your fantasy world where things are never sad but glad, glad, glad. A place where you become like a bird and start soaring high above the highest clouds. Warm and sunny with the ebb and flow of the tides. Smooth, caressing, blossoming with the softests' of touches. Where the wind touches your face like a butterfly fairies kiss upon your sensual soft cheek. Light, airy, caressing. Makes you tingle with happiness and glee from the thought of.

Maybe could try it sometime...ehh?

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my mentally meanderings on the slack...

I wanted to write something about "zoom" and all the things he did on the moon. But my mind has went blank... I hate this...I'll think of something that i think is good and I won't write it down even though that I know, what I know-I will eventually forget it and wind right back at the place I started from....

Zoom, and the moon and all things he could do,
He could jump, he could fly..
if only for a moment or two.

a quick update

Ok it has been almost 12 hours since I stopped smoking....well trying to stop smoking. I am not doing too bad.....just when I sit at the computer. While sitting here is when I would smoke the most. So sitting here is going to be my hang up but I know I can make it. I just keep reminding myself of the all the long term benefits.

to pass the time

I wrote the following while waiting for my husband to get off work one night.

Its about twelve thirty am
and I'm starting to feel a buzz,
Not a fly, nor a bee
can ever make me feel this free.

Im elevated far above the horizon
floating atop the clouds
No words or a even a sigh
Will not ruin my high.

Being inside the invisible shield
it protects me from harm
so here inside will i stay
and this crazy world, I will away.

but only for a little while,
forever i will not stay
buzz for awhile I shall.

some rathering interesting surfing

On this very night I was surfing the net and somehow came up on the website of "high times". Well, i decided to click on their links icon and told myself to click on anything. I did and ended up riding at rhinotransport. I clicked on their links section and wound up in PorcupineTree. Very interesting music. Especially while partaking of the 420 ritual. I even downloaded some of the very music and its good, I like it. Its calming and invigorating all at once. This is a great feeling. I then went to Tantric glanced around there for a minute or two, ok it was like 15 minutes but whose counting. Meanwhile awhile later, I realize that I also clicked on a few others. It was very cool surfing, if I do say so myself.

an ordinary day...

Nothing really exciting has been happening. Just normal everyday things. This, that and/or the other. No one can really tell.


Later that night chilling out after work......

Watching Celebrity Poker on Bravo. It was fun to watch. Then I celebrated the holiday...420...Happy freaking New Years!! :)

A story of my dad

My dad, the biological one that I live with, is very particular about is yard. He absolutely hates anyone that as so much gets a millimeter of rubber in his yard. Its a yard. It happens occasionally. Our driveway is off of a small private lane. There are also a total of 3 houses that live behind us down this lane. So there is lets say, a frequency of traffic up and down all day long. Well, he yells at people to slow down. Then he proceeds to say "I got your tag number, lady!" This man who is 64, doesnt know how to read and he can barely write his name. How he is going to remember their tag number and be able to write it down. Well anyways, the whole point of the pre-story was to ready you for the story. Tonight my hubby and I, had to run to UDF to get cigs. When turning around in the lane I was turning the wheel to turn around and completely without malice or will intent, I drove the car through my fathers yard. This brought to utter and complete whimsical laughter. My eyes actually flooded and overflowed their lids.

some funny rabbits

it was a good weekend

I had a very good weekend. It was warm. The sun was bright and I was able to celebrate 420. Good all the way around. Now its back to work for another week of fun. At least I hope it is. It feels like its going to be a long night too. Maybe not, David is working tonight and he is a riot! We shall see, shouldn't we?.

Have a great monday and don't forget to look out for the little green men that cross your path...lol


Well, work went great tonight. We were really busy but to be honest, i couldn't tell... Had to be because David was working. I was doing "speaker" and he was "coordination". So we were able to be funny with each other to make the night go by faster and easier. I had to make a boatload (alot) of "fruit bowls". Those things are such a pain in the ass to make, its not even funny. It was a good night all around otherwise.

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This is from the "color test"







Your wacky sense of humor rocks! It appears that you can laugh at just about anything, including yourself -which is way cool! And hey, if you can't laugh at yourself, who can you laugh at right? Just kidding. Of course you know you have to make sure you're not offending anyone right?! In any case, most people probably get a kick out of your wit and most likely love hanging out with you. We think you're pretty funny too!

This is from "Queendom".

just things

There has not been much happening in my neck of the woods. The other night at work something interesting did happen. I was handing out some food to a car, no not the car, the person in the car and this person, who had to be no more than 18 was sitting there, while driving, smoking a roach. I was like WTF?! Of course, under my breath I called him a "f*cker". LOL I couldn't help myself.
Last night at work we were pretty busy and the night flew by. Well, tonight, not all that busy and the night just seemed to drag and drag. Which I figured it would've anyways since Thursdays are my Fridays. When I get off work on thursday night thats when my weekend starts. Its nice. I like it much.
My husband and I was finally able to come up with the money (thanks to my dad) to get insurance on the car. Now I am not scared to drive anymore. I was always afraid of getting pulled over because it seems that cops have nothing better to do than to pull people over for no reason. Its happened to my hubby twice already. Well, when he got pulled over, which they didn't have a reason, just did...we didn't have insurance so now he is not able to drive. So I have been the chaffeur here recently. I think I have driven more in the last 3 weeks or so than I have since we've been together. And its been 4 years. Anyways, so now I always drive the speed limit no matter what. So all you tailgaters out there be warned. If you get behind me and the speed limits 25 mph....guess what? I will be going 25 mph.
p.s. Everyone keep your fingers crossed, i might be able to get hooked up with some green tomorrow. :-)

Maybe good times around the corner.....

I am now back to a full week of working again.....I only worked 4 hour days last week because of having for my kids for spring break. It turned out to be a slow business day. For some reason the last 2 hours seem to just drag. Nothing exciting happened tonight just the same old stuff. I didn't have to pick husband up from work after I got off so it was an early night for me so to speak. I did take a notebook with me to do some writing while waiting for him to get done. I was looking forward to it but it was also nice to be able to come straight home from work also. I did have to stop and pick up cigarettes which i got 2 packs for $3.07. They are usually $4.90 for 2 but I guess a computer glitch helped me save some money. Woohoo! I can't really think of anything else to say except maybe we are supposed to be getting hooked up with some smoke on thursday so hopefully "D" will come through. It will be nice to have it for the weekend since we don't have the kids and be able to relax and chill through a whole weekend with my crazy father. lol He is not really crazy just crazy. Your normal everyday crazy. Like me! LOL

everyday happenings....

My daughter, Brooklynne, turned 13 on the 2nd. It was really nice to be able to have her for her birthday.

This past week was hectic to say the least. Taking Rob to work, dropping the kids off with their dad, come home, turn around take myself to work, pick up the kids, then go and wait for Rob to get done at work, come home and try and get some sleep. There was a few days I only got a couple of hours. I decided to get someone to work for me this past friday so I can spend some time with the kids.

My heart melted this morning when Elijah, my youngest at 10 said he didn't want to go home. Ever since coming back from living in Kentucky things have been much better for all of us. I am closer to my children and can see them on a regular basis and be able to be involved with them and school stuff too. I am rubbing off on them because Brooklynne has started saying "for real" alot. I realized I say this too often. We can thank my sister Lori, in kentucky for that little saying. LOL Hopefully, at the end of this month we will be able to get back down there for a visit.

I am planning on after I drop the kids off with their dad today I am going to run up to Springboro to see my adoptive Dad, I miss him. He is such a great Dad. He has always been there for me no matter what. He has not always agreed with the decisions I have made in my life but judged me he has not. He never will. I love him very much.

Music playing....Love and Affection, Def Leppard

Im cool again....

Last night after work I went over to "D's" house and we smoked it up. It was very cool. I had a very good time. She kept telling me I was nuts and i just kept laughing.

I didn't have fun driving to pick up my husband from work though. I kept having to check the speedometer to make sure I wasn't driving too slow. But I made it. He didn't get done until almost 3. I got like an hour of sleep before having to go pick up the kids from their dads before he had to go to work.

Losing sleep makes everybody cranky. I don't recommend not getting enough sleep. Not good.

hanging in there...

I am hanging in there but I still hope/wish things were better. Couldn't things always be better?. Doing the same thing day in and out just gets old after awhile. And when you think about it everything boils down to money. You always need more, you never have enough. Life is crazy sometimes but I'm still here, hanging in there. I am going to journey through this life one day at a time.

One journey I do need to take is a northern road to find my baby sister, Julie. I haven't spoke to her I know about 3 years. The last I heard from her, she sent me an email about the arrival of her 3rd child, a boy. The phone number I had for her was disconnected. No forwarding one given. So one of these weekends when I can save the gas money I AM going to find her. I miss her like crazy. I just wonder what is going on with her that she wouldn't want any contact with her sisters. We didn't grow up together because we were given up for adoption when young. (i am now living and caring for our biological father) When we finally grew up and started having families of our own we made a promise to always keep in touch, no matter what. It was something that had to be done so we wouldn't lose touch with each other again. Well, about 3 years ago she got remarried and moved up north of Dayton, Ohio, and ever since then it seems like she has changed considerably. I will let you know if I find her and its her new husband no wanting her to have contact with us I will proceed to kick ass literally. I'm sorry but he shouldn't do that to her. Its just wrong. I love my sister dearly and nothing will get in my way having contact with her. I am going to start emailing her everyday and see if that illicits a response from him. He probably blocked me from sending her any or he just intercepts them before she can see them. And its wrong. Just plain wrong. Julie, if you are out there somewhere please, contact me.


The weather here has finally warmed up and today was a beautiful day. I was lucky and didn't have to go into work until 8pm. So I was able to enjoy the day with kids and still work this evening. My husband was able to find a job on Monday. He started this afternoon. I will have to pick him up after I pick up the kids tonight after midnight.

I need my fix!

I had to sneak into my children's easter candy because I needed a chocolate fix. Does this make me a bad mother or just a chocoholic??? I will have to say that I also gave each of kids a piece of it too, i just didn't tell them that it was really theirs. LOL My diabetic father noticed I had the candy and promptly told me..."thats not fair." I plan on getting him some sugar free candy. I do know that they make sugar free turtles. I had one at work one night and it was really good. You couldn't even tell that it was sugar free. The chocolate, carmel and the pecans. YUM YUM YUMMY!!!!!


Oh yeah, for those of you who are sitting on the edge of their seats feeling concerned and sorry for me...I haven't had my 420 fix in 8 weeks and it sucks big time.

thank you for listening and have a good night....

spring is here but its hiding

well spring is here and its supposed to rain all week.

Last week had lunch again with a good friend. It was nice to see him again.

I have my kids for their spring break. I'm only working 4 hours a night this week. Its nice to have a job that will work with you on things like that. My last job didn't like giving me days off to have my kids. They were assholes to put it mildly. Anyways, its gonna be real nice having them for a whole week. Too bad the weather is going to be pretty much crappy all week. Rain, Rain go away, come again another day.


I finally had a talk with my husband about his not working. We've had a chat similiar to this one before. I told him that this was pretty much his last chance. I can't do it anymore by myself and that if he wanted to be treated like a man he needed to start acting like one because I'm tired of being the man. I also told him that it seemed to me that he would work for a little while and then stop because he knew that I would work no matter what to bring money in. We've been married for almost 4 years together for 5 and we have nothing, I mean nothing to show for it. Were supposed to be a team, 50/50 not 95/5 cause thats what it felt like. I would like to be able to get myself a few things but I can't because what little amount of money I bring in we need for other things. Is it really too much to ask to be able to get myself much needed undergarments?? I mean seriously, for real! I told him that I did love him and wanted to be with but if he couldn't get a job and keep it and prove to me that he will support this marriage as much as I do, then I couldn't do it anymore and I wouldn't.

I just don't know.....

I just don't know what has happened with me lately. I have seem to lost my words. I haven't been posting as much here recently, ok, within the last month or so. My stream of thought seems to have slowed to a slight trickle. Hopefully, one of these days I will be able to find it. To start the creative juices flowing again.

Now a word from our sponsor....

The winds whisper through the day and scream into the night,
echoes of time pulse through our veins,
there is no advantage when we have no sight.

Feel the sound and hear the breeze,
stand on the edge and see the trees,
do what you want, do as you please.

Days pass slowly as we move on
our senses become inflamed,
sitting on the ledge I can feel the dawn.

just because

i think i have writers block. I would kick it out of the way but i would hurt my toe.

Well, February is over. Another month gone by and there is not much to show for it. Today was payday which is cool. I'll have some money for about a week and then it will be gone. Bills, Bills, Bills. ITs a part of life, a neverending cycle. Makes me want to watch that movie A Neverending Story. Pretty good movie. All make-believe and fantasy. If you haven't seen it go rent it or go to the Library. A very good watch. Which in turn makes me want to make a list of my favorite movies. I have a few. The movies that you can watch over and over again and never tire of. I like scifi-ish movies, fantasy, action, drama, comedies, you name it I probably like it. I was talking with a girl at work tonight and I honestly couldn't remember the last time I watched a really good comedy that made me laugh out loud, almost pee my pants kind of funny. You just continually laugh so hard throughout the movie that your belly hurts when its over. If you know of any that would do this for me let me know. I up for ideas. I Love movies.

On another note. I should be up for a raise at the end of march. Lets go march!!

Another weekend with the kiddies...

Had a great weekend with the kids. My youngest boy spilled coffee all over the keyboard so we had to get another. He asked if we were mad at him. I had to tell him that we weren't because I have spilled stuff on our previous keyboard and ruined it. So like mother like son. What can I say I can be a klutz at times.

And this past thursday at work my manager broke my glasses. Which wasn't good cause they were the only pair that i had. I did manage to find my contacts which are seven years old. They helped me to see a little bit better but not much.

I did have fun at work tonight tho. Dave and Eric were letting off firecrackers and bottle rockets again. We did go out the back door to let off a bottle rock and wouldn't you know a sheriff's car rounds the corner to go through the drive through. Well, needless to say we all made a mad dash towards the back door. Eric said "well that wasn't obvious at all". We all cracked up for about 5 minutes.


A few words to ponder................

Here I sit on this thorn,
Whilst I sleep upon this rock,
When I take a walk in the sky,
Here on the ground I do fly.

ITs friday for me!

I know today is thursday but for me its friday. I don't work fridays, saturdays, or sundays. WOOHOO!!! for me! Yesterday at work was a bad night for me so I had hubby get me some white russians for me to drink on the way home. I only drank one though because I hadn't really eaten anything all day so I knew it would go straight to my head and it did! Besides, that was the first drink i've had in a long while.

Oh yeah, I finally made my mixed cd to play at work. Tonight when i get home I will post the songs. Its a good listen.

Oh What a Day.

How come parents when they get older are bound and determined, or so it seems, to drive you freakin up the wall. I just want to pull my hair and slap him with it. He is definitely an old fart and he is more moodier than me. Its just crazy. Crazy I tell you.

Today is Tomorrow

Ok technically isn't tomorrow but like a week later but i've been busy. Work has been getting busy and life can be hard some days. Just like everybody else. We all pretty much go through the same things just in different ways. I call it the same difference factor. More to come later I have to run now...bye

tomorrow

I can't post right now, Iwill tomorrow ok....

Wednesday was my Monday

You know that saying "I hate mondays" or even have said it yourself. I believe I've seen a sticker or two with "I hate mondays".

Well, today was my monday. It didn't start off bad but boy oh boy it ended bad. It was a horrible day. Just bleeeech! Ok..work was bad. I kept getting stuff wrong. At one point, I had a slight moment of feeling like i just needed to run out of there screaming. Yeah it was that bad. Well I get off work and proceed home. Hubby was driving which is his "marriage occupation" He the man, him drive. Well it stopped snowing. We got about an inch in like 4 hours. So the roads were a little slick on the way home. We starting going down a tiny hill. We we started to slide towards the right. The car just kept sliding so Rob turned into the slide and just keep the car on level ground. Good thing to our right was a corn field. No corn its winter here. Ok...so for about 200 or so feet, we were travelling in the corn field. It wasn't cool but kind of cool feeling.

So then we get about 3 miles from home. 3 miles. thats all. Run out of gas. The car started gurgling and losing power. Then the engine, you can feel its shake shake shaaake thing going. and Hubby says....."I think we are getting ready to run out of gas." Well, after what he said sank in I breathed a sigh. The day just couldn't any worse. I couldn't wait to get home from work and have some coffee and make something to eat. I was thirsty and hungry. Didn't want to eat at work because fast food makes you fat. Me no fats wants to be. And we run out of gas. out of gas I tell ya. My hubby knew how much of a phobia/fear of mine to run out of gas. Don't know why, it just is. So we pull over into a drive way and called my dad with whom we live. He's old, he needs lots of help and stubborn so we moved in here with him. Anyways, it takes like 10 minutes of calling him 8 times on cell phone for him to answer the phone. Well, he comes to where were are. Let me tell you this, my dad is illiterate. Can't read and can only write his name. Which makes his reading of road signs and such not possible. So i had to tell we were a little ways above the house on the corner that the two sisters lived and that they died within days of each other when they were both in their nineties. Then he knew where we were. So he comes picks me up we go about 3 miles up the road to UDF. Thank you for being 24 hours. We filled the portable gas tank took back to car. Hubby filled up and we proceed home where I made coffee and something to eat than sat down at computer and got my 420 on. Thank you to gods of nature for bringing us to utopia for a small spell of our lives.

"Your so Vain, i think this song is about you..."

I had a great and wondrous thing happen to me and my conscious self...

a realization.

and wouldn't you know it, but talking with my husband he told me what it was....

At the time, i was sitting in front of the computer. Our dresser sits right next to it and it has a mirror. So when I face to the left I can see myself in the mirror. Well, i was doing exactly this , while brushing my hair and I asked the stupid question "Honey, am I vain?" Well, as soon as it came out of my mouth and I knew I shouldn't have said it. Even thought of it. This is one of those questions a wife should never ask her husband. NEVER! Its in the same catergory as "Honey, I am getting fat?" . Starting to see the picture, im trying to paint with words??

Anyways, what i realized in the depths of this conversation, I realized he was right. But only about 2 things. My eyes and my hair. I really love looking at those things in the mirror. Ok, i figured the reason for this. I get complimented on them, not bragging, just stating fact. You can ask my husband. So I'm thinking that for this reason, I try different ways to enhance and deepen the look of my eye. You know, make them more of what they are. On the second thing, my hair, its because my hair has finally grown back out after being short for 2 years. Im glad to have my long, flowing locks back. I really regretted having my hair short. When I first had it done, my hubby cried for three days. (obviously he loved my hair long) I think i look better with longer hair. It has a sleek, deep brown look. Very touchable. (see I told you i was vain about my hair...next time you'll listen :)) So i've been brushing my hair alot and have been using better hair care products. I only use Thermasilk shampoo and conditioner. And two or three times a week I use one of those flat heating irons. Very nice, you should get one. It makes my hair very shiny and sleek looking.

So that was my realization....that i am vain. I think everyone has a little of vain in them. Human nature I say. We're all supposed to have self-confidence. So my hair and my eyes are two things about me that boost my self-confidence. Or could one propose that self-confidence--can too much be a bad thing?? Hmmmm...a little brain food to ponder.....